not just a servant
"The thing is, you don’t have to."
"I’m with you till the end of the line."
- Then come back to me.
Ok, I really want to talk about this scene, the last gif in particular because it is the most heartbreaking thing I have ever witnessed on screen. So Bucky lets them put that guard in his mouth and lets them push him back on the chair and strap him there like an animal. You can see that on the first gif, he waits for it like a soldier would. His face is resolute. It is his ‘bring it on' face, because this is his life and his mission and he is nothing but a weapon. The moment they strap him, his body twitches and there is a sudden change in his facial expression. But still, he waits for it and breathes because what else is he supposed to do? He can't rebel. He has no free will. Now, the third gif is what completely kills me. Moments before it happens, he blinks. He blinks deeply. That is the most human I have seen him in this entire movie. That is his cry for help. That is his resolution slipping away and his fear setting in. And he exhales, biting on that guard even harder. That is Bucky's 'dear god, why is this happening to me?’
Notice how his breathing rapidly increases and the body muscles contracts. Supposedly the mind wipe wipes out his previous memories, missions, information or whatsoever, including the process itself. Here we see Bucky’s reaction to the “new experience”, his mind’s probably in a blank state but clearly his body remembers. Remembers the electric shock piercing through his nerve system, the brain numbed by the excruciating pain. The body is trembling and scared. Even if Bucky was keeping his fear inside, his body’s natural instincts and reflex betrays him. This certainly speaks truth to how dreadful the procedure was.
The whole last gif is someone bracing themselves for how bad they’re about to be hurt. And the screaming. Up to that point the Winter Soldier himself is rather soft spoken when he does talk. And he’s a bad ass who we see get the tar knocked out of himself without so much as a word. But this is so bad he can’t stop screaming. Bucky breaks my heart because of all the Marvel characters, he’s treated the worst, hands down, villain or hero. He’s tortured over and over and over. Bucky is just hard to watch. And in spite of all that he still does something GOOD in the end.
"The whole last gif is someone bracing themselves for how bad they’re about to be hurt. And the screaming. Up to that point the Winter Soldier himself is rather soft spoken when he does talk. And he’s a bad ass who we see get the tar knocked out of himself without so much as a word. But this is so bad he can’t stop screaming.”
I don’t know if Sebastian made a conscious choice to do this or if it was accidental, but it is genius. I think he understands the character well enough though. Just look at the way his eyes press together and then open up wide in terror. That heavy exhale as he prepares for what’s coming. Just think on how many times this has happened to him? How many times has he been sitting on this exact chair remembering something of his past life. Something that would bring some type of meaning to his robotic existence. All he really wants is to remember and at the same time because he has been conditioned not to feel anything, he doesn’t really know that he wants to remember. It is a horrible place to be in. Not only is the procedure physically agonizing, but he knows that the faint light that he is starting to see at the end of the very dark tunnel that has been his life, will completely be removed and he would be back to being a hollow shell of a man. And the fact that he accepting this torture willingly because he has been trained not to have a choice in the matter, kills me.
“The Stiff had jumped first.Even I didn’t jump first.
Her eyes were so stern, so insistent. Beautiful."
I have been waiting for this gifset.
"Don’t do anything stupid until I get back."
Emily Vancamp as Sharon Carter in “Captain America: The Winter Soldier”
Don’t look at me. I do what he does - just slower.